My dearest friend,
I know I am at least partially responsible for the pain you're in now. I left you when you needed me the most, and I am forever guilty for this.
I know you want me to forgive myself and move on from it, but as long as you're unwell I will be forever trying to atone for my sins.You see I made the mistake of looking up messages from the past. Messages where you were telling me how much you miss me and how much you want me to come back, and I read the excuses I made that prolonged your pain for years....
Now I'm back and we're talking again and feel happy and loved, but in the back of my mind I know I don't deserve it. How can I deserve your love when I've hurt you so badly?
How will I ever make this right? How can I help you find happiness again? I have to for your sake and mine.